Ellis ☆ Joshua ☆ Darke

☆☆My Baby Boy Ellis Joshua Darke came into this world at home ont the 31st January 2008, he was a healthy weight and had a cubby little face,☆☆

Ellis was the most bueatiful little boy i ever saw well to me he was, but to others he wasnt, someone next door used to say what an ugly little boy he was i used to hide him when i took him out to make sure nextdoor didnt see him and make upseting comments to him,
Now i feel like a pathetic woman because i hid me beautiful son, After Ellis died and it was his funeral and the hearse pulled up with my little boys coffin in it i saw the women that called my son and ugly little 'c***' her husband came out and gave me a floral tribute of a star saying fighter on it and he said ' its NOT from the wife' 2days later they split, i felt a little better that she could not make uncalled for comments about my son, Ellis had a beautiful send off, My sister took pictures but im still not ready to look at them as its too soon after Archies death as well as Ellis's i still cant go into Ellis's bedroom, lucky we had a three bed so Leon had his own room when he was born and Ellis's didnt have to be touched at all,

When Ellis was a few months old he suddenly when ill and he was unable to poo and would cry when he needed to,

I took him to the doctors and they said Ellis had a bowel infection, he was really unwell and needed to go to hospital ASAP, they rung for an ambulance and they arrived within momments i wanted to carry my sone to the ambulance but they wouldnt allow me, they scooped him up an ran into the ambulance an laid im on the strecther and wired him up to heart monitors and oxygen and god knows what, a family friend saw them running with my boy and me following behind pushing his buggy she told me to go with him i was going to but i needed to sort the buggy out to, she took it off me, and we went to the hospital, Ellis's conditon started to deteriorate he was rushed to intensive care and he put up the biggest fight i have ever seen a 4month old infant do, he fought for sixteen hard and long days when his daddy and i got together again to for Ellis's sake we sat by baileys bed side and took it in turns to stay with him each night, on the 13th June i found out i was expecting another baby, i didnt want to have another baby if i couldnt even keep my 1st son alive, but i didnt want to get rid of my baby either, I told Ellis he was going to be a big brother on the 16th June and then 2 hours later Ellis's main organs started to shut down, his heart stopped beating and he stopped breathing the doctors and nurse done CPR on him for 25 long minutes and not a single improvement in Ellis they had to stop, When i heard the nurse say Time of death 12:21 my heart stopped and split in to, i couldnt belive what they where saying, i was looking around to make sure they where not talking about my Ellis, and they where he was the one of the youngest babies there and the illest,

Ellis just one moment more with you would heal my heart break only for a little while love you Ellis xxxxxxxx

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